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sunhawk16 ([personal profile] sunhawk16) wrote2013-12-20 06:06 pm

On the seventh day of Christmas...

*scrape scrape scrape*
Oh look... the bottom of the barrel! What's this? Oh my... haven't seen this in ages.
*dusts off snippet of ficlet*
Wonder if I can use this? It's kinda short...
*looks around*
Buuuut... I'm kind of running out of stuff. So...

Uhm... hi! So this goes out with a tiny little apology to the Sons Of Maxwell. And a tiny little apology for inflicting it on you... it's a song-fic... it's short... and it has no context! ^____^



You know I can’t stay, you said.

Please, just don’t look back, you said.

The 5:07 is pulling into the station and I know you’re getting on. And I’m standing in the middle of the sidewalk, with the people jostling around me… a stone in the flow of things. I didn’t look back. God help me… I didn’t look back.

And now I just don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I’ve forgotten where I was supposed to go. And none of it matters anymore anyway. Not without you.

I can’t stay, you said. But you never said what I was supposed to do once you were gone. I think I just… might cease to be.

The people moving around me are strangely without rebuke, looking at me and looking uncomfortably away. It feels like I’m the one moving, and they’re standing still as they blur and fade before my eyes.

Don’t look back, you said, and I didn’t. It was the last thing you asked of me, so how could I deny you? I walked away and I didn’t turn around… just like you said.

I hear the whistle on the 5:07 and I close my eyes so I don’t have to see it pull out, don’t have to risk seeking a glimpse of what I’m not supposed to.

Don’t look back, the wheels seem to say as they build up speed. Don’t look back. Don’t look back. Don’tlookback. Don’tlookbackdon’tlookback…

‘I didn’t look,’ I whisper to them, feeling a pain in my chest that threatens to expand until it fills me.

But then arms close tight around me from behind.

‘I did,’ you say.

[identity profile] pellsfan.livejournal.com 2013-12-21 01:22 am (UTC)(link)
Oh my. A very short, but intense ficlet. My heart was sinking and I was nearly crying before the end. Lady, you are a fantastic writer.

[identity profile] lavendarlizard.livejournal.com 2013-12-21 01:23 am (UTC)(link)
*sniff* Awwwwwwwww... *more sniffling* *where's the damn tissue?*

(O)(O)(O)(O)(O)

[identity profile] sunhawk16.livejournal.com 2013-12-21 01:28 am (UTC)(link)
It was kind of written in response to the song 507 by the Sons of Maxwell, but damned if I can find anyplace on-line to listen to it...

[identity profile] sunhawk16.livejournal.com 2013-12-21 01:29 am (UTC)(link)
What's Christmas without a little angst? ^^;

[identity profile] lavendarlizard.livejournal.com 2013-12-21 01:38 am (UTC)(link)
Ummm... >_> A *little* angst...? Oh, the horrors you perpetrate in the name of xmas. *snork!*

^______^

[identity profile] t-shirt1x2.livejournal.com 2013-12-21 03:29 am (UTC)(link)
oh bloody hell lol your gonna give us whiplash with a switchback little ditty like that lol Man...and I was soready to cry too! Denied! I think my heart made that wobbly sound cartoon characters make when they run headlong into a frying pan or something. lol Totally awesome! You rock oh, Sunny one. *GGGGG*

pulled that out just like a sticker, you did... *sniffle*smile*

[identity profile] t-shirt1x2.livejournal.com 2013-12-21 05:49 am (UTC)(link)
on another note...has anyone else ever noticed that the comments in LJ alternate between blue and violet? *g* I'm just saying...

(Anonymous) 2013-12-21 06:36 am (UTC)(link)
routhier says:

it's funny, but if i were to see something like this on tv, or in a movie, i'd be screaming, "NOOOO! it doesn't really happen that way!"

...apparently i can only suspend my disbelief and enjoy the moment in fic form. XD

[identity profile] sharona1x2.livejournal.com 2013-12-21 09:56 am (UTC)(link)
It must be dusty in here. That's got to be why my eyes are tearing up. I was getting a little worried at the end, but I knew you wouldn't post something totally depressing for the holiday. You wouldn't, right?!

[identity profile] trixie-chick.livejournal.com 2013-12-21 10:11 am (UTC)(link)
poetic, and painful, but with a sweet ending. the bottom of your barrel is quite nice!!

♥!!
ext_42681: (me)

[identity profile] kracken.livejournal.com 2013-12-21 02:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Short, but a tear jerker.
merula31: by Sami (gw Clap! Go on)

[personal profile] merula31 2013-12-21 07:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Really lovely!

[identity profile] sunhawk16.livejournal.com 2013-12-22 02:43 pm (UTC)(link)
It was tiny! Little fic can only equal little angst... right?

[identity profile] sunhawk16.livejournal.com 2013-12-22 02:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Thing has been sitting around forEVER, because it just didn't seem like there was enough to do anything with, but... the holiday season breeds desperate times! ^o^

[identity profile] sunhawk16.livejournal.com 2013-12-22 02:44 pm (UTC)(link)
They all look blue to me... O_o

[identity profile] sunhawk16.livejournal.com 2013-12-22 02:45 pm (UTC)(link)
That's cause in fic form, it took like... thirty seconds. Anybody can suspend their disbelief for thirty seconds! ^__^

[identity profile] sunhawk16.livejournal.com 2013-12-22 02:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Not completely, utterly depressing. *checks fic file* I don't think....

^__~

[identity profile] sunhawk16.livejournal.com 2013-12-22 02:48 pm (UTC)(link)
This time of year always scares me because I really do end up depleting the works in progress folder. Though I suppose I should look at it like an end of year house cleaning. O_o

[identity profile] sunhawk16.livejournal.com 2013-12-22 02:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Yay! That was the goal! ^_____^

[identity profile] sunhawk16.livejournal.com 2013-12-22 02:49 pm (UTC)(link)
I think when I look back from the future, this will end up being the year of weirdo stuff. ^o^

[identity profile] lavendarlizard.livejournal.com 2013-12-23 06:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Um.... Sure. Yeah. Uh-huh...

*oh myyyy...! is that a purple plot bunny I see sneaking into your basement?* ^____^

[identity profile] sunhawk16.livejournal.com 2013-12-25 12:47 pm (UTC)(link)
It doesn't want to go THERE, it'll drown!